Life Ten Years Ago: was weird. I don’t know how to put it. The year exactly ten years ago was a nightmare, which I wouldn’t want to recall and I’m not one for nostalgia anyway. Still, things being ‘normal’ involved me getting used to a new baby in the house. I remember being fascinated with its tiny hands and feet, its whining, its ability to draw everyone’s attention towards itself, and also its rapid growth rate. Most of it was fun, apart from the diaper-changing, that is. Ten years back, however, it wasn’t that big an issue. The kid had been potty-trained.
I’m not too fond of how I used to behave in public places. I was way too honest and outspoken, and was just as likely to tell someone, “I think you’re being very stupid” if I felt so as I was to say, “I think that is really good.” So it isn’t too surprising that I wasn’t liked much by my peers. Nobody likes frankness, you see. Anyway, I don’t like musing over memories.
Life Five Years Ago: was strange, again. There’s a reason I hate these “looking back” tags. They make me seem like the protagonist in a dark comedy. I was trying to get used to a good friend’s absence, my first ‘real’ friend. It took me a while to find my bearings after she moved to another city. I suppose I’d overreacted back then, I’m not really sure. But oh well.
Five years ago, I was also quite busy rebelling against a lot of things, being a girl, for instance. I was a big-time tomboy who hated anything “girly”, had cropped hair and wouldn’t be caught dead in anything other than a pair of jeans and baggy “tent-like” T-shirts. I’d still be found bossing around the younger kids in the building complex (yes, there used to be many, then), roller-skating down the stairs and nearly breaking my wrist (I just tore a muscle), speeding on the streets on my bicycle and scaring old gentlemen, and saving up on cash given to me for transportation purposes by walking or riding my bike. I’d spend it all on ice-creams.
Oh and I think that was around the time when the singing stopped. Permanently. I got immersed into hard rock and started spending more and more time alone and withdrawn.
Life Tomorrow: will continue to be strange, with extreme lows and moments of maddening euphoria since I can’t seem to be able to get used to the fact there are certain things I should learn to live without.
Five Locations I would like to Run Away To: any place which is biting cold and has a splendid view of the mountains. I don’t know. I usually don’t “run away”. But if there was a place where I could find some comfort in my surroundings, it would be Darjeeling. I just want mountains.
Five Bad Habits I Have: It’s actually quite difficult to restrict myself to just five. I’m not my favourite person, you see. He he he. Oh well, here goes:
1. I am extremely lazy and an awful little gambler when it comes to my life. Procrastination is my middle name, and I could claim to have an extremely high IQ, if the ‘I’ were to stand for ‘indolence’.
2. I am extremely quick tempered and get very impatient with incompetence of any sort.
3. I have practically no social skills. Nil. For instance, I could ignore a friend completely and concentrate only on eating my chocolate pastry without even bothering to speak to the friend. Yes, I have done that. And I still eat like a sloppy six-year-old. Meh.
4. I am aloof and reserved, and am an extremely closed person. Bottling up issues would be something I am extremely good at. Besides, my self-sadistic tendencies ensure that I stay this way. I always beat myself up even if I don’t talk about it out loud.
5. I am much too dreamy for my own good and shall not elaborate on this since I’ve already forgotten what I intended to put in.
Five Things I Will Never Wear: I would like to say “anything pink”, although I have a T-shirt which I pass off as “coral”. No one seems to be convinced though. I wear that as little as I can. Basically, I’m not going to wear anything I feel uncomfortable wearing. Stuff that falls in that category may vary with time and my mental maturity.
Five Biggest Joys at This Moment: I just spent the entire evening on this tag instead of going through stuff for the viva I have tomorrow. It’s fun, oh yes. Nothing else, though. And that isn’t very pleasant at all. Heh.
Something to Achieve By Next Year: some more freedom, space and self-sufficiency. I know that hoping for a freak road accident to take my life is asking for too much.
Something that Impacted Me Last Year:
Ending a certain chapter of my life, did help a lot. But no more on that, since it is over. The change that accompanied a certain transition did lift my spirits slightly and I am grateful for the fresh start which I wasn’t sure I’d get but did. I also made a couple of good friends. I don’t know if they’ll stick around a depressing soul like me, but I sure hope they do.
What I Will Miss About 2007: I’m not one for nostalgia so, nothing. I’ll just take a few memories into the future, with me.
Five Things I Want To Do Before I Die: Can’t I just die and get it over with? :P Tee hee. Oh well, I’d like to do something which I’ll actually be proud of. I don’t know what that is as yet. I’d also like to gain closure about some things and work up the courage to face some other issues. I don’t know. Learn to live, maybe? I still don’t have a plan.
And Ship, I am not going to forgive you for tagging me with this.
I’m not too fond of how I used to behave in public places. I was way too honest and outspoken, and was just as likely to tell someone, “I think you’re being very stupid” if I felt so as I was to say, “I think that is really good.” So it isn’t too surprising that I wasn’t liked much by my peers. Nobody likes frankness, you see. Anyway, I don’t like musing over memories.
Life Five Years Ago: was strange, again. There’s a reason I hate these “looking back” tags. They make me seem like the protagonist in a dark comedy. I was trying to get used to a good friend’s absence, my first ‘real’ friend. It took me a while to find my bearings after she moved to another city. I suppose I’d overreacted back then, I’m not really sure. But oh well.
Five years ago, I was also quite busy rebelling against a lot of things, being a girl, for instance. I was a big-time tomboy who hated anything “girly”, had cropped hair and wouldn’t be caught dead in anything other than a pair of jeans and baggy “tent-like” T-shirts. I’d still be found bossing around the younger kids in the building complex (yes, there used to be many, then), roller-skating down the stairs and nearly breaking my wrist (I just tore a muscle), speeding on the streets on my bicycle and scaring old gentlemen, and saving up on cash given to me for transportation purposes by walking or riding my bike. I’d spend it all on ice-creams.
Oh and I think that was around the time when the singing stopped. Permanently. I got immersed into hard rock and started spending more and more time alone and withdrawn.
Life Tomorrow: will continue to be strange, with extreme lows and moments of maddening euphoria since I can’t seem to be able to get used to the fact there are certain things I should learn to live without.
Five Locations I would like to Run Away To: any place which is biting cold and has a splendid view of the mountains. I don’t know. I usually don’t “run away”. But if there was a place where I could find some comfort in my surroundings, it would be Darjeeling. I just want mountains.
Five Bad Habits I Have: It’s actually quite difficult to restrict myself to just five. I’m not my favourite person, you see. He he he. Oh well, here goes:
1. I am extremely lazy and an awful little gambler when it comes to my life. Procrastination is my middle name, and I could claim to have an extremely high IQ, if the ‘I’ were to stand for ‘indolence’.
2. I am extremely quick tempered and get very impatient with incompetence of any sort.
3. I have practically no social skills. Nil. For instance, I could ignore a friend completely and concentrate only on eating my chocolate pastry without even bothering to speak to the friend. Yes, I have done that. And I still eat like a sloppy six-year-old. Meh.
4. I am aloof and reserved, and am an extremely closed person. Bottling up issues would be something I am extremely good at. Besides, my self-sadistic tendencies ensure that I stay this way. I always beat myself up even if I don’t talk about it out loud.
5. I am much too dreamy for my own good and shall not elaborate on this since I’ve already forgotten what I intended to put in.
Five Things I Will Never Wear: I would like to say “anything pink”, although I have a T-shirt which I pass off as “coral”. No one seems to be convinced though. I wear that as little as I can. Basically, I’m not going to wear anything I feel uncomfortable wearing. Stuff that falls in that category may vary with time and my mental maturity.
Five Biggest Joys at This Moment: I just spent the entire evening on this tag instead of going through stuff for the viva I have tomorrow. It’s fun, oh yes. Nothing else, though. And that isn’t very pleasant at all. Heh.
Something to Achieve By Next Year: some more freedom, space and self-sufficiency. I know that hoping for a freak road accident to take my life is asking for too much.
Something that Impacted Me Last Year:
Ending a certain chapter of my life, did help a lot. But no more on that, since it is over. The change that accompanied a certain transition did lift my spirits slightly and I am grateful for the fresh start which I wasn’t sure I’d get but did. I also made a couple of good friends. I don’t know if they’ll stick around a depressing soul like me, but I sure hope they do.
What I Will Miss About 2007: I’m not one for nostalgia so, nothing. I’ll just take a few memories into the future, with me.
Five Things I Want To Do Before I Die: Can’t I just die and get it over with? :P Tee hee. Oh well, I’d like to do something which I’ll actually be proud of. I don’t know what that is as yet. I’d also like to gain closure about some things and work up the courage to face some other issues. I don’t know. Learn to live, maybe? I still don’t have a plan.
And Ship, I am not going to forgive you for tagging me with this.
2 comments:
Now this one long tag..certainly would have taken an evening away!
But mNice reading!!!!
Heehaa.
I'm not doing that one, oh no.
Post a Comment