Time: 5:58 p.m.
Things have not been going particularly well. The last few months have been strange and hard and there have been changes at home. A cyclone had come by our place, not recently, but two months ago. We are one member short now and although everyone is going about their lives as best as they can, the house does feel a lot more empty. It’s indeed funny how one occupied corner could make it look fuller.
In any case, my luck cycle is at its all time low and I don’t recount a previous occasion when it had been this bad for such a long stretch of time. I have grumbled a lot and been annoyed at many people for numerous reasons. The strangest thing, however, is how wondrously so many threads that I held securely in my palm once upon a time, have disintegrated and left behind only dust. And I don’t know if that is a situation where the blaming game has any role to play.
There is one relationship that I thought absolutely secure as a child, which is growing steadily worse. New strength and ties have been discovered in another, yet there are so many other ties that reek only of disappointment. I am not sure if it is wrong to expect a certain level of respect and understanding. Maybe it is; which is why those closest to me disappoint me so. I guess I hope for too much.
On a comparatively less grave note, the lizard problem plaguing me has reached such a high that there are too many of them now for me to be scared. I have taken to watching them idly when I am reclining on the rocking chair in one room, or a sofa in another. Just this evening, I was aimless enough to watch an adult lizard await its lady (or should it be ‘lizardly’?) love outside a bookshelf crevice close to the ceiling. I am certain that this occupation would not have arisen had I not had so many examinations to sit for.
Speaking of which, a part of today’s torture session left me with the desire to curse my torturer with the most prolonged and painful death. However, I would rather not dwell on this debacle for there are certainly many more to come. Perhaps relief will show itself one fine rainy day when I truly get to believe that all will be well. It’s back to the grind till then.
In any case, my luck cycle is at its all time low and I don’t recount a previous occasion when it had been this bad for such a long stretch of time. I have grumbled a lot and been annoyed at many people for numerous reasons. The strangest thing, however, is how wondrously so many threads that I held securely in my palm once upon a time, have disintegrated and left behind only dust. And I don’t know if that is a situation where the blaming game has any role to play.
There is one relationship that I thought absolutely secure as a child, which is growing steadily worse. New strength and ties have been discovered in another, yet there are so many other ties that reek only of disappointment. I am not sure if it is wrong to expect a certain level of respect and understanding. Maybe it is; which is why those closest to me disappoint me so. I guess I hope for too much.
On a comparatively less grave note, the lizard problem plaguing me has reached such a high that there are too many of them now for me to be scared. I have taken to watching them idly when I am reclining on the rocking chair in one room, or a sofa in another. Just this evening, I was aimless enough to watch an adult lizard await its lady (or should it be ‘lizardly’?) love outside a bookshelf crevice close to the ceiling. I am certain that this occupation would not have arisen had I not had so many examinations to sit for.
Speaking of which, a part of today’s torture session left me with the desire to curse my torturer with the most prolonged and painful death. However, I would rather not dwell on this debacle for there are certainly many more to come. Perhaps relief will show itself one fine rainy day when I truly get to believe that all will be well. It’s back to the grind till then.
End: 6:19 p.m.
5 comments:
i have nothing to say.
feel better soon.
why is EVERYONE running low on luck??...
it's something in the air...
apart from that, hugs. feel better again...
There will be more fun and adventure coming soon. All things come and go like tides. Wait for the Moon to push some luck your way again, when you time is right.
And get them lizards! woooowooo!
Rock on!
everybody hurts sometimes@ REM..i can never feel it from your end of the line but all i can say is such is life..
hope stuff is ok by now...be cool girly and don't let the lizards phase you out.
g'luck in whatever you're up to :)
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