I sometimes miss the old me: the one who was not all that harried by deadlines, or endless post-it notes of things left to do. The one who had time to stare at the people passing by on the streets and wonder what their lives were like. The one who read voraciously and wrote furiously and lost herself in music. Time can be quite cruel, especially when it slowly squeezes bits of life out of you.
It is not as though I only have things to complain of. Good things have happened, yes, and convenient things have happened too. Yet, I wonder sometimes whether I have lost myself somewhere in the middle of all that is to be done, and forgotten the person I always was.
Life is a little lonelier now, especially given how almost all my closest friends are scattered all over the country. They're busy, I am busy. The story of everyone's life. Having new people you can share a couple of laughs with helps, of course, but I'd be lying if I said that I didn't yearn for those days that I spent watching stars from a friend's terrace, surrounded by my favourite people in the world. Ah, nostalgia!
I recently visited North Sikkim with my closest friend and a really fun bunch of people. It was a much-needed break from routine. The wanderer within had been making its presence felt for quite some time, and it was good to get away from the city for a while. I got to use my new dSLR properly too, so, there was some salvaging of my former hobbies! It's a beautiful place, with fine, kind people, and of course, I'd never say no to a trip to the hills.
Hopefully, a few things that I hope work out, will indeed work out. Life may or may not be easier because of it, but at least I'll know that I gave it a shot. For now, I try to get a few evenings out with the friends who are still in the city. My closest college friend and I can't seem to be able to spend more than a week without meeting and having a blast!
Perhaps I might get to go on another trip after a few more months... It's definitely something to look forward to! In any case, it's back to work for now. LD out.
It is not as though I only have things to complain of. Good things have happened, yes, and convenient things have happened too. Yet, I wonder sometimes whether I have lost myself somewhere in the middle of all that is to be done, and forgotten the person I always was.
Life is a little lonelier now, especially given how almost all my closest friends are scattered all over the country. They're busy, I am busy. The story of everyone's life. Having new people you can share a couple of laughs with helps, of course, but I'd be lying if I said that I didn't yearn for those days that I spent watching stars from a friend's terrace, surrounded by my favourite people in the world. Ah, nostalgia!
I recently visited North Sikkim with my closest friend and a really fun bunch of people. It was a much-needed break from routine. The wanderer within had been making its presence felt for quite some time, and it was good to get away from the city for a while. I got to use my new dSLR properly too, so, there was some salvaging of my former hobbies! It's a beautiful place, with fine, kind people, and of course, I'd never say no to a trip to the hills.
Hopefully, a few things that I hope work out, will indeed work out. Life may or may not be easier because of it, but at least I'll know that I gave it a shot. For now, I try to get a few evenings out with the friends who are still in the city. My closest college friend and I can't seem to be able to spend more than a week without meeting and having a blast!
Perhaps I might get to go on another trip after a few more months... It's definitely something to look forward to! In any case, it's back to work for now. LD out.
4 comments:
it's weird how all of us grew up to be teh same person.
same lonely person running after deadlines :(
and not writing as much as we should.
I feel the same way... I wish for simpler times.
returning to your blog after four years, it feels odd. yet you are still the same.
@Little Boxes: Seriously, I know!!
@Raaji: Things are always in such a weird state of flux, right?
@Aly: That's both heartening and slightly disconcerting, haha. Glad to have you back though :)
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