It is boring to be bored. And I don't like being bored, or messed up, or confused or indecisive. I feel like Hamlet. It's sick. Really. Really sick. I just thought that I'd taken a decision I'd stick to and here I am, already feeling unsure. Perhaps I should get myself re-christened, something along the lines of "She-who-vacillates-to-such-an-extent-that-the-sun-would-long-become-a-white-dwarf-by-the-time-she-makes-up-her-mind". But that would be too long. Hamlet the Second? NO! I don't think so. Ugh, see? I rest my case ... I simply cannot make up my mind. People like me should be hung upside down by their toenails and made to dangle from jagged parapets. I'm such a pathetic excuse for a human being. Oh look, how nice! Now I've reverted to emo-mode! Being bipolar sucks as well. It's crummy and awful and stressful. I don't like it. I'm bored. I don't like being hyper either. I feel exhausted. Like my brain just exploded. I'm tired of everything (back to emo-ness *sigh)! And iTunes has a mind of its own. It comes up with the lamest possible song variations on Party Shuffle right when you want to avoid songs like those with a ten-foot pole. For instance, right now, I'm in the mood for some Floyd and it's playing Michael Learns To Rock. Yuk! Why did I even add those stupid songs to my Library? It sure knows how to annoy people properly. Perhaps I should take lessons from it. My head hurts. Again. And I think I need to take Kali. Phos. again. Stupid. Useless. Horrible. Annoying. Argh. I'm tired ... again. And bored. And confused. And dazed enough to forget all my stickler-rules for proper grammar and formatting while posting. I don't know whether I'm making the right choice now. I think I'll probably go there tomorrow and end up impulsively choosing something else. Over-simplification. Yes. I want that. NOW. How nice it would be if the world were less complicated! I feel like singing Imagine now. And I should bop myself on the head with the emergency lamp next to my laptop. It would be interesting. My reaction, that is. Insomnia is stupid and evil. It gets on your nerves and makes you act as though you're still reeling from smelling your boots just to see if you're 'strong' enough to take it. Not that I smell my boots. Just thought I'd make that clear. In case funny people get funny ideas. I'm loony. Might as well get used to it. Ah, Linkin Park. Finally. And I've been asked to go to sleep now. I wish it were permanent though. Le sigh.
13 comments:
hey it happens...but you need not sleep forever for that...
remember the conversation we had?
Ditto! I get tired from resting too much sometimes... and I feel the need to get a holiday from a holiday. And yes, it truly is punishing to be bored :)
You know BDC, the most ironic thing was that I had to stay AWAKE all night owing to a nagging knee injury which decided to go hyper-drive into pain-mode last night. I didn't sleep a wink. Dunno how I'm still alive though. Heh. >_^
knee?girl,i went through the same...ya ironic!
but atleast you didnt keep stopping yourself from looking down at it because you cant stand losing that precious liquid in you
It's about being random, bored, highly intelligent, very sarcastic and irrelevant.
It's fine.
Possibly.
Methinks this is all quite nice, you know.
You just need to make your hand stay away from the knife. Or maybe the chainsaw. Or perhaps even the chisel.
Oh, and I am sorry to butt in so quaintly. I suppose you will forgive me for that.
@ Lucifer
You suppose correctly. ^_^
And by the way, I like your display picture. Neat.
@ Prince Kazarelth
(Hope I've spelt it correctly)
Yes, indeed.
It was a 'phase' and I've gotten over it (for now).
@ BDC
Ah! I'm glad you're better now.
But if I suppose correctly, then I suppose I would hafta buy some armour soon. Or perhaps some kind of a shield. Otherwise I believe I am slipping for all this charm.
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Er. Er. Ugh. Um.
Oh never mind.
I don't.
Maybe because perhaps I don't have one.
A mind, I mean.
Do you know places where they can loan me one?
Nah. I'm looking for a functioning one too... I have no idea where to find one.
PS: I really think I should add a chatbox.
Yes.
Add.
Maybe then I would stop cluttering your comment box.
Heh. True.
It's been added. :D
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